The Library

Thanks.
It shouldn't take me long.
I'll be back soon, ok?
*kisses forehead*

Okay.
*squeezes hand*
*thinks*
I hope she's alright..

*walks in *

*waggles eyebrows at Daniella*

I saw that. ^-^

*grabs book*

*leaves*

*lays down on pillows*
*continues watching Avatar with Lidia*

*wait, Avatar?!*

:O

*snatches a couple of DVDs*

*heads up to room*

(XDD
I love you Hoover.
You're too entertaining for your own good.)

(yeah, I know. Aren't you supposed to be asleep? The only reason IM up is because I'm considering getting bangs and my madre wants me to research before I go to the salon thing.)


(H: Niiiiiights!)

*le gasps*
Noooooooooooo Arianna you stole my Zuko!
Ohy wait, I'm not at those yet.
Just bring them back!
*goes back to watching Avatar butt-kicking*

(lol at the parlor)

*freezes*
O.O
*gets up quickly, running from library*
*yells from hallway*
I'll be back!

*brings back DVDs*

Grazie!

*heads back up to room*

Sweet Zuko!
(I'm tempted to make that an official swear word of mine...)
Thank you Arianna...

Er, okay Daniella....
*picks up a book at starts reading. intensely*

*slips in quietly and looks around*
Maybe I can do some thinking...
Is this really what I want?
*sighs and slides down to sit on the floor* ((in the middle of a row of shelves. btw.))
*puts head in hands*
If he's just given up on me like that. Why shouldn't I just give up on him?
If he doesn't care enough to come home and see me, to see his daughter... then he isn't worth my time.

Obviously we weren't as 'in love' as I thought.
He's probably not even my soulmate.

As soon as I work through this, I'll go back to my job.

*looks up and frowns*
Rizz, are you o- well, obviously you're not okay. I won't ask.
*pats her back*
You'll get through this. Whatever you're going through.
Just keep breathing, alright?
*smiles, then walks back over to her reading nook*

*glances up at Lidia*
Oh, sorry! I didn't think anyone was in here.
But thanks. Yeah, I'm trying to sort some stuff out.
But I do plan on continuing to breath! *smiles*

*leans head back against shelf*
What would I really do if he came back home?

{{I think she's starting to overthink things... Haha}}

*walks into library and sits down*

*single tear falls before wiping it away and putting on a facade*

*sits in a window still and stares out the window toward the woods*

*pulls Stefan into library*
*pushes him towards the window wherre Nikki*
*whispers* Go!

*ish pushed forward*
*stumbles to Nikki*
Um. Hello.
*waves weakly*

I'm sorry.
*looks at feet*
I know I hurt you, don't lie to me.
I can hear your heart.

*smiles and leaves*

*looks over*
*smiles weakly*

Hi.

*turns head back to window*
*soft whisper*

If you knew, how come it took Rizzo to literally push you to get you to talk to me?
You had been here a day.
And I didn't even know...

I'm a coward of sorts perhaps?
I was afraid, as cliche as that sounds.

I left you without telling you why. I thought you would be angry.

I didn't know until you came into the kitchen, when I heard your heart. Then
I became even more of a coward.
I'm not a humble knight my lady. I have no white horse, no powerful sword to slay dragons with.
I have my heart, and I didn't think you wanted to hold that broken heart in your hands any longer.

*still a soft whisper*

Or maybe it is I who is the coward.

I was angry.
No. I wasn't.
I was disappointed. I was sad. I was heart broken.
I have seen what Scorpius has done to Rizzo.
And I was so sure it was happening to me. It still may be..

*looks at him with tears in her eyes*
If you can hear my heart, then you can feel how it has cracked more since hearing those words of you not being able to stay around.
We are two people, two broken vampires, who are so unsure of ourselves..
Yet. Another is by us, but aren't seeing it clearly.

*takes hands in his*

You aren't a coward!

I'm sorry Nikki.
I'm sorry I did that to you!

I don't want to hear your heart, I don't want to understand what I've done to you.
I can't let that haunt me, as I know it will.

We are broken, and we belong with each other. We understand why we're unsure.
Broken and mending, forgetting and healing.
*wipes tears away*

You hold my still heart in your hands still.

*closes eyes and leans into his touch*

I'm so sorry I'm so weak..

I want you to hear my heart.
Because if you can't..

*trails off*

You still hold it. Broken pieces and all in your hands.

*leans into arms*
You're not weak, you're just tired. Tired of this life, of this living endlessly.

Because if I can't hear it, who will?

Nikki. You are mine. Do you understand that?
I will never leave you again.

*smiles*

I wish I could hear yours.

*stands up, wraps arms around his waist and leans head where his is*

I do.
Just as your are mine.
I've missed you..