Rizzo and Pandora

I'm not exactly sure.
Everything has thrown me off.
He disappears then comes back but doesn't see me until you push him.
Thank you by the way.
Then things are good but he's been really quiet and disappeared somewhere around the house again.

*frowns*

I'm afraid he's going to leave again without telling me.
I feel as if I'm destined to be single, solo, forever.

He'll be back.
He better be back!


I know he loves you, and you him. Just give it some time!
Sometimes it takes a lot to admit and act on feelings.

*smiles*

Thanks Rizzo.
I don't think admitting it is our problem.

*blushes*
*giggles softly*
*whispers*

I told him earlier I think I was falling in love with.

*giggles*
Ahh, I see!

*stomach rumbles*
O.o
Uhoh! I guess I'm hungry! And Pandora probably is too!
I say we go see what everyone else is doing and grab some food!

*laughs*
*looks at progress made in the room*

I think we deserve food after this day of work.

*smiles*

Thanks for the conversation today!

*heads down to Kitchen*

*comes in*
*sets now sleeping Dora in crib*
*smiles, covering her with a blanket*

*goes and sits on edge of bed*
*stares at floor, letting tears fall down cheeks*
*squeezes eyes shut*
*sobs into hands*

*curls up onto the bed*
*grips pillow, crying into it*
*thinks* Why? Why did this have to happen?
I'm strong, but I can't handle this. This is a different kind of pain.
I can't just...
*cries more*

-walks to room door-
-hears her still crying-
-hesitates to knock-

-thinks-
I really AM going to die.
What the hell am I thinking?


-knocks softly-

*looks up*
*wipes tears from face*
*goes and opens the door*
*sees Christian*

Yes?
*sniffle*

-thinks-
Now what did I get myself into?
-rubs neck with hand-
-says softy and with monotone-

I am sorry for bringing up the source of your distress.
It was truly unnecessary especially since I knew, from Jumpy's past, what he has done.

-thinks-
If Jumpy's memories are correct, the thing between Scorpius and Rizzo happened ages ago.
Why is she still not over it? Goodness..

*face goes blank*
*stares at him*
*blinks*
Yes, well... it's not exactly your fault.
*looks down at floor*
*thinks* I should have known better than to have fallen in love with a guy like him. Now I'm basically widow...

He's gone. And I have stuff to sort through.
I....
*swallows*
*stares at floor*

-stares blankly at her-

This probably is not my place or my time but I have been told I do not hold my tongue at the appropriate times and I do not plan to start now.

-pauses-

If Jumpy's memory serves correctly, which I am assuming it is, this 'thing' happened quite a while ago. Is there a reason why you still are not over "it"? Why you are still dwelling on such a past?

*looks up at him*
Have you ever been in love, Christian?
Have you ever fell so hard for someone that you would do anything for them?
That you felt incomplete when they weren't there?
That's what happened between Scorpius and I. I loved him with every part of my being, and I knew he was the one I wanted to be with for the rest of eternity. But obviously he didn't feel the same way about me, or he wouldn't have left me never to return! Until you know the pain of losing someone so fully like that, then you can ask me that question.

-gaze hardens into a glare-

You tell me about these things. I, with an unfair advantage, know of your past and your history that you remember as well. You tell me when I experience it I should come back and ask you that question? I have never experienced such a love, I have never experienced such a loss but that does not mean, by all means, that I do not know what it can do to a person.

-snarls slightly at memory-

I have seen with my un-aging bodies eyes how it can tear a person to pieces. How someone can fall apart piece by piece with no motivation to put themselves back together. How hard it is to get over.
So please, spare me the lecturing on needing to experience something such as yours to understand. I DO understand it.

*snarls back, standing straight*
You may understand it on an intellectual level, but you don't understand it on a personal level. It's one thing to see it happen through someone else's eyes, but a whole other thing entirely to experience it for yourself! Alright, so you understand where I'm coming from.

*huffs out a breath, exasperated*
Maybe it's not that I can't get over him, maybe it's the fact that I don't want to!

*goes silent*
*realizes what she said*
*eyes widen*
*covers mouth with a hand*

Yes. I have not experienced it personally for myself but that does not mean the person it did happen to was not close to my heart. Quite the contrary actually.

-glares-
-thinks-
Intellectual level? Bullshit. Watching my own mother fall apart makes experiencing it on a personal level much more real..

-eyes widen slightly-
-posture straightens-

How are you to get over someone if you have just realized you do not want to? It seems quite contradictory to me.

*doesn't say anything for a moment*
*sits on the edge of the bed*
*looks up at him, eyes a bit wild*
Well, that's the whole point isn't it?
The first step to getting over a problem is admitting you have one.
*shakes head*

*stares at floor*
*sighs*
*tears fall*
I didn't know I felt that way until just now, when I said that.

*thinks* I guess I'm still hoping he'll walk through the door and everything will go back to normal. But I know it won't. Why am I still holding on?

-stays emotionless-
-nods slightly in agreement-

The first step is admitting you have one.

-stands awkwardly by the door-

-thinks-
Way to go. You got yourself into something now. What the hell do you do when you are standing in the doorway of the room of a woman you met hours ago as she realizes how much she does not want to let the memory of her husband go and learn to get over him. You have truly done it all, Christian.

-rubs neck absentmindedly-
-hesitant-

Would you like me to go grab someone for you?

*wipes at eyes*
No, no. I'm fine, but thanks.
Just...
You don't have to stand there like an awkward child.
*laughs*

*hesitant*
Look, I'm sorry about this, I just...
I've been trying not to think about any of this at all, even though I've learned that bottling emotions isn't good.

It's not your fault, so stop feeling guilty.

-smiles tightly-

I do not what else to do but be awkward. What can a man do while standing in the door way of a woman's room, who he met hours earlier, who has just had an epiphany?

-walks and pats Rizzo's back awkwardly-

You say sorry yet there is no reason to be sorry. Just as I have no reason to feel guilty anymore. They cancel one another out. Even more reason not to feel those if this has all potentially helped you in the process of things.

-walks back to end of bed, away from Rizzo-

*smiles*
*nods* I suppose so.
But I feel sorry anyways, because you're standing in my doorway feeling awkward, because of all that you said. But don't worry about it.

You can go back to bed, if you'd like... apologies have been made, and accepted. On my end, at least. I appreciate you coming over here, though.
*smiles*
*wipes at eyes again*

-smiles softly-
-nods in acknowledgment of her apologies0

You're welcome then.

-stands there awkwardly again-

I think I shall head back to the guest room to rest tonight. Good Night Rizzo.

-leaves quietly and shuts door softly-

*watches him leave*
*sighs*
*changes into pajamas*
*lays down in bed and falls asleep*

{{I'mma just use this for our hallway. >.> Haha}}

*walks up stairs and into hallway*
All the private rooms are up here, as I'm sure you guessed.
I don't have cameras inside them, but there are some here in the hall, as you can see.
*looks over at him*
Have you ever been on a security team before?
*thinks* The way he told me about the camera downstairs... Hmm...

-looks down hallway-
-uninterested-

Nope. I have not been on a security team. Unless you count the way I have seen things in your mind. These cameras could also be differently placed to see better. Do you have some cameras outside the house as well?

-looks at Rizzo-